When Laziness hits me
Yesterday was horrible. Even, the day before yesterday got worsen. I did not talk or think too much; I was watching and playing games. Such a lovely day! Do you think so? No, it doesn’t.
Being lazy is also tiring. We got time and abilities but ended up on monotone activities, or we choose to do nothing. That is ironic.
Anyway, are you sure to continue reading? You’ll gonna stuck on my laziness; il aurait t’influancé peut-être si tu continues.
If I had choices, I prefer relaxing than “lazy-ing.” Being lazy raises negative thinking even though having the power and control to think positively. Is this a part of my pessimism? I don’t know. I have so many things to doubt for. This low self-esteem dig a big hole that I couldn’t get out for.
I didn’t enjoy things: when I watch a movie, I speed up the video; listen to music I love, skipped to the next song and another next song; read a book I have yet to finish, and closed the book after reading one page. I am stuck in these miserable habits for anything I should’ve done.
But, I enjoy new things, new movies, new songs, and new books. Was I just bored with my casual activities? Do I need a fresh idea or activity? If you were in these situations, what would you do? Do you stick by continuing what needs to be done or looking for something new? Answer me, please! I think I have to find new habits but not forget the ongoing tasks.
I believe that I am just bored with habitual activity; making a new turn a little bit makes everything looks better. Two days ago — no, it’s not 2 days ago as I left this writing for days — I watched a few movies. Number 1, Hard Hit; a Korean movie suggested when I was scrolling through my TikTok. This movie has a, I think, horror or thriller genre because there was also excitement. Anyway, forget about the genre because I don’t really understand genres in cinema. I can recommend you this must-watch k-movie. Although, I don’t understand why the main character was still alive as he had a criminal history. But, his daughter got my respect. Do you agree?
Next, I watched also Qu’est-ce qu’on a fait encore au bon dieu (Serial Bad Wedding 2). If you learning french from French movies, this is my strong recommendation, even the first one is way more funnier. The last one, the day after, I watched Midnight Runners. This one is also a funny movie but has a horror scene. I beg you can imagine how the story is visualised. Also, I found this recommendation from TikTok and I really love these two main characters. They have a clever and comic personality. So, you won’t feel so much tension in a such scene.
Within these days too, I then stop reading my ongoing novel. For real, I actually don’t really like reading a novel, because I can’t visualise the story in my head. I don’t know why, I couldn’t wake up my imaginary world. The last novel I read is L’étranger by Albert Camus and Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wick (watched the movie too because I love the story) by Buya Hamka. These books are exceptional that’s why I want to read them. Nonetheless, I have to read books, no matter what as we understand science for knowledge and fiction for imagination.
As this got worse, I tried to read or watch — to find out what people say about what I felt for days. In the end, my eye is focused on these points which might motivate me to reenergize and reanimate my day.
First of all, try to diversify yourself — this introduces me to how to try something new with diverse agenda. Either, it mustn’t only be a new thing, just diversify your to-do list in a day. These varied activities away you from a bored feeling. You might experience a new habit or interest too by doing this. Please have a try.
Play games that make you think — I really love playing games during the break time; interested in RPGs or board games. I’d prefer to adventure the history of the game while finding clues to finish the game. However, it might be stressing me out after complicated work. Actually, that’s why I have to find a game that might interest me to play. Instead of playing games and then suffering in a losing streak, you better listen to instrumental music. It may calm you.
Do your hobby in your free time — after working hard and give so much focus on it, you probably forget the hobbies you have. I experienced this too plenty of times. During the break or at the of the day, I just keep thinking the job needs to be done. I think I have to differentiate between my professional and casual life to enjoy my precious long journey. Lately, I love doing little exercises to reform my body and stay healthy. Also, I sing songs while playing the guitar; singing the songs I like really made my day. By the way, what's yours?
I am 100% sure, there are many joyful activities that get your attention. Choose what you love and do it in your free time before drowning in stressfulness habitual occurrences.
